Here I am sick with some sort of infection again. This time my swollen lymph node is in my groin. Usually they are in my neck or at the base of my skull. I’m sure when I see the doctor tomorrow they will do a blood draw and my WBC count will be elevated as always. I am so tired. I feel so sick. I have the runs and my psoriasis is spreading. My hair is falling out more and no one knows what is wrong with me. I am at the end of my rope. I am 31 and shouldn’t have to live a […]
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For all my life I have just passed from one painful absurdity to the next. And all along I thought, woe is me, I haven’t any luck in life; a life of a boy who was intellectual, creative, loving, and self-aware. As I came to adulthood, I came to the melancholic realization that I am none of these things, nor have I ever been. Even with every shred of sorrowful heartbreak and death of a loved one or a cherished emotion, from every punch in the groin to every stab in the neck, the truly, most dangerously negative force was my own sense of self. […]