I´m 16 now and I´m writing here first time. I really thing about suicide somethimes but I think i cant make it. I can´t die with feeling I didn´t tried I surrendered to death to life to all people and whole my family.I dont want to run awayand I´m gonna fight. That is what i was telling for myself a lot times. But when i think about it now i can see a spark of tightly hidden will to live.Why? because of her. really old lady. For someone a purpose to live and for the others a reason they decided to die for.Love. Nope noone […]
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Is not getting any better, I’m not getting any better,I’m  having an anxiety attack, I feel pain on my chest, arms and legs, my hearth is pounding so fast and I just feel I cannot do this anymore 🙁 I’m living my worst nightmare, I want to get better I just don
I wish I could die tonite, just to close my eyes and sleep forever, no more pain…
I always wake up in the middle of the night feeling this huge hole in my hearth,
Trying to cope with everything that happened to me… thinking about what can I do but at the end to kill myself seems to be the only way out.
I want to sleep so badly! a new day is about  to start, what I’m going to do?? nothing, just stay at home. I wish I had a self destruction button, push and disappear.