I am only 19, I’m so young still why am I thinking these horrible thoughts? Why am I on the verge of hanging myself and letting it all go? Why do I feel so alone? I feel like I am the only person on this planet who actually wants to die. I don’t care if the feeling is horrible and painful I just want to die. I have nothing left to live for, literally nothing. Why am I still contemplating this idea? I have all these questions runnin through my mind and I cannot seem to come up with any answers.
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Horrible Thoughts
my life isn’t that bad. not anymore at least. I was raped by someone very close to me. almost every night in 4th grade. other than that, i dont know whats wrong with me. yeah, i get bullied. but not to my face. maybe that makes it hurt more. i know my family and boyfriend love me. but i cant stop thinking and planning my death. im giving myself a month. a month to see if things ever actually do get better. ive been depressed since sixth grade. cutting used to help, but it doesnt anymore. i dont have any escape from my mind. im […]
No not at the self harming but what happens if i die. I’m always afraid i might regret it after it’s already been done. I’m afraid i’m going to hurt people but then again, i don’t think anyone cares. I try my best to get rid of these horrible thoughts but at the end of the day i always realized it’s going to flood my mind and i’m afraid that one of these days i might actually do it. Sorry if it’s not a story but i just felt the need to get that out.