I think I’m in the wrong room

I was hoping someone on this site could give me an idea where to go on the web or anywhere that couldn’t show me a way out. I’ve tried doctors, electroshock therapy, counseling, etc. Been horrible depressed for 30 years and now anxiety is daily to where it’s unbearable. Doing counseling, excercise, all the typical “cures” My doctor has me on 8 mgs of zanax a day and basically does nothing. Somebody please, 30 years of hell is enough. Contact me if you have any ideas