iI’ve always had trouble with lying. You’re the only one I’ve told because

I’ve always had trouble with lying. And I’m so sorry I lied to you. I lost so much of your trust. It hurts. I hurt you. It’s just the way I’ve always been. I dont know why I lie so much. But I had to tell you. You deserve better. Knowing how much shit I just threw at you just makes me want to kill myself. I just feel like an awful person that doesn’t even deserve to be alive. Even though we’re still together I feel like I’ve just ruined it. I’m so sorry.