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Inadequacies

New Job; Cutting; Inadequacies.

by solace 5/21/2013

written by solace

I finally got a job, which is wonderful. It’s helped me get out of the house, fill up my time, keep me busy and not feel so lonely. But the thing is… they are all so judgemental. It brings me down sometimes, I mean if they are talking about others like that, what are they saying about me?

First things first, I am a cutter, however I have always cut my legs, and the ones on my arms are done in such a way that they are either hidden or they just look like an accident. Anyway, there was a girl working for us for about […]

5/21/2013 1 comment

Please, someone talk to me until a family member gets home?

by rjmays 8/22/2012

written by rjmays

I thought I had beaten the bad thoughts, but apparently not. Theyâ€™re back. Againâ€¦ Theyâ€™re back, theyâ€™re stronger than ever and Iâ€™m too tired to face them. I really wish people could know how many times Iâ€™ve fought this offâ€¦. How many times all I could think of was not waking up again. How many times Iâ€™ve drafted the same letter, trying to find the right words to explain to the people I love why I had to leave them. And each time, I get closerâ€¦ The letter is now 11 pages long. It is placed in the right place to be found by the […]

8/22/2012 13 comments

Abberations and After-Images

by The_Specter 7/3/2012

written by The_Specter

I keep seeing such horrible images, be they in daydreams or nightmares. Myself, bleeding in a pool of blood. A shot to my head, my body limp on the pavement. An empty funeral home with my body set for all to see, and none to look. I cannot escape this feeling, this notion that I will leave this world alone. Lost in the turning seas of my inadequacies. I keep seeing macabre visions, destitute prospects, a shady future. The grave calls, and death seems imminent.

Maybe Iâ€™m not alive at all. Somehow, somewhere, I feel like part of me is long gone. Like the best and […]

7/3/2012 3 comments

I Don’t Know How Much Longer I Can Last

by rjmays 3/29/2012

written by rjmays

I thought I had beaten the bad thoughts, but apparently not. They’re back. Again… They’re back, they’re stronger than ever and I’m too tired to face them. I really wish people could know how many times I’ve fought this off…. How many times all I could think of was not waking up again. How many times I’ve drafted the same letter, trying to find the right words to explain to the people I love why I had to leave them. And each time, I get closer… The letter is now 11 pages long. It is placed in the right place to be found by the […]

3/29/2012 6 comments