Im just tired of everything everyone hates me except 2-3 people my family hate me my mom always calls me names and my brother and sister told that next time i try to kill myself i shouldnt tell anyone so i actually die and maybe theyre right i think about it a lot and i realise everyone in my life would be better without me im just a weordo who cant even talk to people i cant even talker to my counsilors and psychiatrists maybe its my time to go and finally give them what they want besides my life has been hell so far […]
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I am a 27 year old failure in life I have no reason to be on this earth I have never felt so alone then I do today I have been thinking about taking my life for some time now and the feeling has been increasing for the past several months with today being the strongest feeling of wanting to just end it all I feel as if I have no purpose and the people around me see me as being ungrateful and useless I have to fully agree with the later of the two I have a son who doesn’t view me as his […]
So why does it feel like I am? Outwardly I try so damn hard every single day to make them smile, to make you smile. My only thoughts are of yours, my sweet Maria. When I turn inward, numbness is all. None of this is your fault.
I have been distant all my life. Not ugly, or fat, or picked on in any way. I separated myself from others as a matter of course. We had no connection, whatever they felt around me was lost on me. Social cues, meaningless, friendships, tossed aside. I care about nothing. I’m watching my fingers type and know that this […]
I can’t do it. Every day that goes by the feelings get worse and worse. I’m trying so hard and then something happens and I need to start all over. I’m not happy. I want to be but I’m not. There’s so much going on in my life right now and I want it to go well but I constantly doubt myself. I feel trapped and alone and scared. I hate feeling this way. But I can’t even deny it anymore. I just don’t want to be here anymore. I want to just end it all. And these pills. They don’t help. I think I’ve Ben […]
I’m in that mood again, pain is consuming my entire body. Â Every day is the same, nobody listens. Nobody cares about me. Â Can’t they see I’m hurting? Â Can’t they love me? Â My name is Hurt. Â It defines me and my entire existence. Â I’m tired of waiting for things to get better. Â I can’t seem to find that Hope. Â When can I stop hoping? Â When can I just end it all? Â I didn’t ask to be born. Â I didn’t ask to exist. Â So why can’t I just – not exist? Â It’s not like anybody would care. Â I can’t handle much before I fall apart. Â I need […]
I undergo extreme emotional and mental stress at home and I cannot release it without cutting myself. I NEED to cut myself to get a release and feel okay and probably even a little light headed. it’s the only way I can. I cannot talk back to the person causing me the stress and tell how I feel so I just listen quietly waiting for the ordeal to be over so I can be alone and start the cutting! it isn’t the healthiest way to cope but its the only one I have. and the more I realize that statement, the more I think of […]
hi i dont really know where to start but i guess i can start by saying im suicidal. ive been depressed for a long time and im still not sure why. i really wish i could have the courage to tell someone but i dont . im too scared they’ll make fun of me or will worry too much and i dont want that. i really know i need help but im just not sure why im so scared to tell. my dad is so understanding that he could help and my mom could help too i just dont know… i also dont know why […]
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