Everyday is getting tougher. I’ve not only lost the family I created with my wife but I can’t seem to find anyone who cares for me. I’m a fat ugly slob who sleeps with prostitutes so he can feel the tiniest shred if intamacy. I am trying to belong to a world that I don’t fit into. Not that I am trying to fit into any particular category that people try to identify themself with. I just don’t fit in anywhere. I am truly a misfit.I can make friends , laugh and pretend to have fun but its ultimately lacking truth and substance. I feel […]
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Last Hours
I always find my self contemplating suicide at least four times a week.  But the weird thing is i’m one of the most happy/outgoing people i know i just get into theses moods where i feel nothing.  They last hours sometimes days where i’ll just sit and stare at my fan wishing i was dead.  I’ve tried killing myself twice before by hanging but both times the rope teared i failed to break my neck and only caused severe pain and would black out only to wake up to people trying to save me.
Does anyone else know what i’m going though and have any advice on how to cope with it? […]