Part of my brain says I should just take a leap of faith and talk to someone. Talk about the cutting, the suicide attempts. But I’m just feeling all the “what if’s”. I hope I can find the courage before it’s too late. I don’t want to die, but I don’t always want to live either.
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Leap Of Faith
I am heading out for a night on the town, I am so nervous.
Wish me luck.
I hope your all doing well.
Peace
Ruins
I am kind of enjoying a rare peaceful moment…the hour is almost midnight, I am in my bedroom and the window is cracked to let in the cold brittle air of this winters night in yet I hear only the softest of rain patter. It is calming, and the waft of water is cleansing as I breath it in.
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I am full out screaming on the inside as my life feels so out of control.
My life should be more even keeled than it is and I am so fed up with trying to keep my balance and do the right thing all of the time. I know I could just go to bed but it is better to dump this poisonous mood on here and get it out of my physical body. I want to have what I believe is a better place to live, in a better area and the thought behind that is that if I am […]
I still hide behind this facade that everything is okay. I at least try to. I just don’t have any purpose. I’m not important to anyone. I don’t matter. I can’t get over the fact that I lost my best friend. I didn’t see it coming, and he won’t tell me why. He was the only thing that kept me hanging on, willing myself to make it through another day. And now I don’t even matter to him. I was stupid to think I did. As soon as there wasn’t anything in it for him, he disappeared. I knew better than to trust him, but […]