I always find my self contemplating suicide at least four times a week.  But the weird thing is i’m one of the most happy/outgoing people i know i just get into theses moods where i feel nothing.  They last hours sometimes days where i’ll just sit and stare at my fan wishing i was dead.  I’ve tried killing myself twice before by hanging but both times the rope teared i failed to break my neck and only caused severe pain and would black out only to wake up to people trying to save me.
Does anyone else know what i’m going though and have any advice on how to cope with it? […]