Little Tiny Pieces

FOr my whole life, I have been bullied, called fat, stupid, crazy, and psycho. I weigh 84kg today, and i’m only 14. I starve myself. I have depression. When I was 11, my brother died in a car accident. When I was 12, My cousin comitted suicide. We were so close and it has ripped my world apart into little tiny pieces. I cut myself. I consider suicide almost every day, like it’s something I have to do. Someone, help me. Please.