Halp me? Someone?

As difficult as things are for you now, and I am in no way saying they aren’t really hard, the good news is that the bullies will go away. In a few years, they’ll end up alone because they treat people like shit. Don’t listen to a word those idiots say. Often when people bully it’s due to their own insecurities, so when they call you ‘fat’ or ‘stupid’ it’s basically a self-reflection they’re trying to deny by accusing other people of these things. I am very sorry to hear about your brother and cousin. Losing people you are close to is really hard, especially when you are already going through tough times. Starving yourself will NOT help. If you are serious about losing weight, and not because you think you’re fat, but because you want to improve your health and feel better about yourself. Cutting is not the answer although I know first hand the temptation of it and the control it provides as I struggle with it too. You are lucky in that the bullies are other people, rather than yourself, so it will be easier for you to realize the good things about yourself. First good thing I notice just from this is that you aren’t a jerk who makes people feel bad about themselves by calling them names that target their insecurities. When you’re nice to people, they’ll want to be around you more often. I wish you good luck and hope that you take care of yourself and not give in to the ‘easy out’ suicide seems to give.