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Loneliness

Grief is not a stage

by mffarrow 7/10/2009

written by mffarrow

I am concerned that I can no longer imagine a future for myself. I sleep 8 (or 12) hours a day, and I wish it were 20. And every time I wake up, I am very, very sad.

I thought about killing myself today for what must be the thousandth time. It does not make sense that my brain would choose death as the only remedy for pain, when there are so many other things that can be changed. And yet my brain returns to its deadly, depressing litany. Is it, finally, time to die?

There was to be more, but I […]

7/10/2009 1 comment

No Hope

by Nansea 7/9/2009

written by Nansea

Hello out there in suicidal land. I have no hope for the future.

I’m tired of the pain of loneliness. For now, I’m chicken shit. I can’t do it, and I’m sure deep down inside I don’t want to do it. Yet, I keep fantasizing about hanging myself or charcoal combined with car exhaust seems to be the way to go. I need to end this pain.Â I’m 37. Maybe its time to go. Tell me what is the meaning of life again? See since I wrote that I know I don’t want to go. Suicide is attractive because the pain can end.

7/9/2009 3 comments

I actually thought life was supposed to be fair

by Nansea 5/30/2009

written by Nansea

This is a vent or rant. I believed life would be fair. I watched tv and it rotted my brain.

I thought one day I would meet a special guy. I met one that I thought was special 9 years ago.Â He really made me forget about the guy I had a crush on for few years. This man was my first boyfriend at 28 years old. You can believe I thought I would have met a guy that actually was attracted to me before then, but that did not happen. Now I question what if any feelings the guy I met back then had for […]

5/30/2009 0 comment

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