I know I’m new here. I’ve had these thoughts in my head for years, but no one understands me. My meds are off. I’m trying new ones, but they aren’t working fast enough.  Every med I’ve tried either doesn’t work or has side effects that are worse than the damn depression. Therapists have never worked. I’ve never found one that I liked or trusted. I’m afraid that the first one I talked to honestly would dump me in a looney bin or have me forcibly committed. So I can’t open up to them. Basically, everything in my relationship is my fault. Everything. When I try […]
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Looney Bin
as i lay i close my eyes to have this dream
about my life
they came to visit
and they said
they had come for me
they told me i couldnt leave
they told me i have to stay
they told me ill be around forever
they told me i couldnt wake…
so until this day
their world ill stay
morning
night
i stay awake the insomnias getting to me
its taking its toll im seeing them every where
i think theyve crowned me king
or am i dreaming am i living in the looney bin
the worlds so vivid its shutting me off
they told me ill live for eternity
i cant take this anymore
the anxietys getting to me
im seeing double or are they […]