I’m depressed in really weird streaks. I’ll be to the point where I need to cut every freaking night and think about suicide for a while, and then it will let up for a short time, I still won’t be happy, but I won’t be cutting. It also always seems to strike worse in the night, thats when I usually really feel hopeless.
I don’t know why it changes. If I think about it, I always feel alone, with no prospects for meaningful friendships. I never get hopeful, just not depressed. Does this phenomenon happen to anyone else?