I am not very good at this anymore but I didn’t know what else to do so here goes. I have spent the better part of the last 15 years thinking about suicide everyday. When I was young I actually attempted it a time or two. I used to talk about it, I used to write poetry and letters to deal with it, until one day it all blew up in my face. My “friends” Who “understood” all of a sudden didn’t anymore, my parents tried to have me committed, and my poems and letters were used against me. It all went to hell in […]
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I’m not going to say i had a such a horrible life, because i have never truly been hungry, never been homeless and got a lot of things i wanted. What i didn’t really have were supportive parents and friends. Majority of my life i was sheltered from things in life which made me oblivious to a lot of things. for example, i literally don’t know the barriers of conversation and cross them constantly, when i needed new tires i thought they came with hub caps, etc etc. I’m just dumb, and it shows in my work place, and since i fix aircraft lives literally […]
To say no one cares about me would be a lie. I know I am loved. I know that if I pulled something off that I would hurt a lot of people. I have many friends. I am in a leadership position in the military (not stating what branch). Yet I still constantly think about ending my own life. The thoughts probably come every 5 days or so. I just feel as if theres nothing for me or like I’m going nowhere. But this isnt something that just came about. It has been something led into.
When I was about 10, I became the victim of […]
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