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i’m just scared…

by itstimetogo2015
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After years of searching without and within – I’ve decided that the best decision I can make for myself is to die now instead of later.

I’m scared to die because I’ve never died before; however, I refuse to stay and am terrified more of staying here – miserable for no reason at all. I’ve spent 3 years coming to this conclusion, asking questions, researching, you name it. I’ve had 30 years of sheer misery.. it’s time to go and this isn’t an act of desperation. At least I don’t believe it is. I’ll know on the other side. Since we all fail (daily for me), […]

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A Recurring Dream

by Sammi6xoxo
written by Sammi6xoxo

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The warm spring air calms my mind as my feet hit the sparkling cement of the now wet main street bridge. The hood of my black jacket hides my face as I make my way to the top. Its 2a.m. and the city is dead silent. My phone buzzes continuously in my back pocket, but I ignore it. My mind wonders as I stare down at the black waters beneath me. Who will miss me when I’m gone? Who will think of me? I check my […]

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My story..

by Astley
written by Astley

Hi.. My name is Astley. I’m fourteen years old and I think I’ve been through a lot. My grandma has ALS so my family’s been gone a lot. I’ve been cutting for over a year and I really really want to kill myself. I struggle with horrible anxiety, Anorexia, and depression. I honestly hate myself. More than anything. I don’t think I deserve to live. I think I’m more trouble than I’m worth and I do take more than I ever give in. I hate myself so much. If I kill myself though, so will my boyfriend and I just can’t do that to his […]

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Only For A While

by Sammi6xoxo
written by Sammi6xoxo

Let me detach my head
You can keep it in your bed
Where so many memories were made
So many things were left unsaid
For my ears will hear you whisper
My eyes will see you smile
My lips will speak your name
But I can only stay a while

Let me remove my heart
You can keep it in your car
Where I used to leave my shades
And my shoes were often shed
For I long to feel the wind
As we drive on for miles
The radio up too loud
But I can only stay a while

Let me tear out my lungs
You […]

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I . . . don’t . . . . want .. . .. to . . . . .

by Bisban
written by Bisban

I had to change the music, but it’s already all too late. If I were in it’s stability, it would be like writing a book status as I sit. I’ve already said every words. The dungeon that I am battling. But no-one will ever know. The destination . . . isn’t coming back. Attacked, from every which way . . . The name of a dark one makes his name and view down deeper and clearer. The ten-year cycle that my mom told me about, it isn’t over. The hardest thing, it exist now . . . But what is it. This night shall disappear, […]

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by joinjeremy
written by joinjeremy

F***ing 2073,

Gradually Overcoming Obstacles by God’s Love & Eternity its my Dr*g Of Choice… Sometimes

 

This is 100% fictitious, but is that not reality?.. Especially if your name is Jeremy in 2073..

 

Join?

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I just did.

by jmgsing
written by jmgsing

Less than a year ago, I have done so many horrible things and the worst is, I tried to commit suicide. I have put to shame my very own name and the names of many others. I was 18 and I was at the lowest of lows, I have experienced a wide assortment of emotions. I have felt a way no one should ever be allowed to feel.

Up to now, I still can’t tell exactly why I did it. I was just so mixed up inside and I do not know what triggered me to do such thing. I never thought I could do […]

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False Prayers

by Sammi6xoxo
written by Sammi6xoxo

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I’m sending up a prayer
To the emptiness up stairs
I cry in desperation
And hope that someone hears
I’ve been taught so much
About clinging to my fears
And how a single touch
Can dry up every tear

Who is my saving grace
Does my hero have a name
Should I be looking to myself
To numb all of my pain
I’m tired of trying
Id rather hold your hand
I wouldn’t feel like dying
If someone tried to understand

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morte et a morte

by cathy arsis
written by cathy arsis

sanity can fall so abruptly, with such disarming ease, and swifty become a casualty of life,
we are so quick to allow all things tragic that alight on all sides of this life to hold sway,
most of which we musnt only bear but abide by so it naturally follows that from time to time we
might hope for some permanent respite, and think sweetly upon death…. all have felt this way,
some more than others I suppose. this can be chalked up to the human condition, for us to feel as
though we’ve been cheated
God closes his eyes, breaths in deeply, so many […]

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I feel worthless

by MarcelloDileon
written by MarcelloDileon

Hello my name is Marcello, I’m a 16 year old who is considering suicide. In a nutshell the reason that I want to end it is because my parents are divorced and my whole family is fighting. I have been doing some research about methods and I think hanging is the best option. The tools I have available to me are a belt and 2 ties, I would want to know the best way to do it and what it will feel like.

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I broke the promise..

by whydoibother
written by whydoibother

Hi, I’ll say my name is Bret (it’s not) I’ve been cutting for about 1/2 a year now but recently my friend found out and I promised her that I wouldn’t pick up a razor again.. Well tonight I did things have just gottenterrible at my school, I’m secluded and people think I’m weird. But I’m just wondering what I should do..

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Tired

by innocent_Nico-teen
written by innocent_Nico-teen

Im so tired.
I’m tired of being caught in the middle.
I’m tired of being treated like dirt; like nothing.
I’m tired of being treated like I’m not worth anybody’s precious time.
I’m tired of living.
I’m tired of breathing.
I’m tired of feeling.
But if I end it all today,
I die with a burden on my shoulders,
And selfishness in my name.
I would die leaving my boyfriend here to grieve alone;
God knows he’s as suicidal as I am.
I would die knowing all the pain I put my “family” through.
I would die never accomplishing all the things I wanted;
A […]

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The pretender

by macd123
written by macd123

Often I sculpt people
Who aren’t there
To create memories that don’t exist
That make me laugh at nothing
Often
Pretend that someone is concerned
That I actually knew you
And that the choir knows my name
At night I imagine
That I smell your hair
I hear you breathe
I slip into your womb
Always
I wake up alone
With a fractured skull
And empty space
Still in my wheelchair
Unable to move
While the diva in my head
Sings long arias
Of self abuse
That I twist into
Lullabies just to survive
In the doctors office
I open the magazine
I fail the […]

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Self Inflicted Seclusion

by Matt
written by Matt

They’re out again tonight.

Not that I asked to know what they’re doing, they still think it’s okay to tell me. Show me the life I walked out of. And maybe it is for some people, maybe some people can handle seeing what they lost.

I’d be with them if I was still there.

Or would I?

Long ago, when we first met I’d be with them. Then everything went downhill. Bits of me began to fall off the faster I went.

I’m not feeling particularly anything recently, I just feel dead. If that’s even a thing. If death could be felt. The absence of everything. The absence of caring. […]

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And I Heard, As It Were, the Noise of Thunder

by Matt
written by Matt

One of the four beasts saying, Come and See.

and i saw.

Am I the Devil? No, of course not. How self-righteous. How presumptuous. A devil would relish in what I feel. Would strive to increase the agony inside of him. Then he’d share that agony.

I feel like if I keep going I’m going to start sharing.

Not like I haven’t thought about it before.

Maybe that’s what I have to do. Become less of a man. More of a monster.

History remembers monsters.

No one remembers a coward.

 

and i saw, and behold… a pale horse… and his name that sat on him…

 

Death.

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Starr Program

by Starr_Crys
written by Starr_Crys

I hate it. I got out of my grandma’s house for cutting, and she sent me to a hospital. the hospital was okay, but after I refused to go back with her they put me into a ton of different Starr programs. The sad part is, my middle name is Starr so it’s more depressing than it should be.

I’ve given up on friendships, since I’ll just have to leave in a week. I keep to myself and read my books. I haven’t stopped cutting, even though I really should. I’ve met my soon-to-be foster mother. She’s so sweet, she just has to clean her hose […]

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Androgyny vs. Conservative Family Tips Anyone?

by Skeleton100
written by Skeleton100

I’m a teen female by birth. For a while I’ve been wearing guys clothing. Comfortable, confident, the whole picture. My dad’s all right with it – he’s pretty open-minded. I wish I was living with him.

My grandparents and my mother…ha, whole other story. They can’t imagine why a person with a feminine name wouldn’t want to wear flowery tops and cardigans. At Goodwill they frowned at my pile of baggy shorts and shirts. Almost told me to put the crap back, even though I was using my own money. I don’t get it – they should be happy I’m not wearing bubble-ass shorts. Sorry, I’m […]

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101 Reasons We Were Friends

by Matt
written by Matt

This list is for a specific person, but for anyone out there who would like to be my friend/ already is my friend, you must be able to tick atleast one of the following attributes.

1) The way you brushed your hair out of your eyes.

2) You never pretended to find my jokes funny…

3) …Unless you actually thought they were.

4) Your self conciousness.

5) The way you’d comfort me when I was down.

6) Your cooking skills were unparalleled.

7) Your favourite Smiths song is “Frankly Mr Shankly”

8) Your crush on the guy that lived across from us.

9) You weren’t afraid to say it how you saw it.

10) The […]

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