I tried to love myself. I tried to have confidence myself. But I couldn’t. And I can’t. I decided to kill myself as soon as possible. This is not temporary feeling. I been thinking about suicide since when I was 11. I couldn’t commit suicide because I lived with my family. Now I live by myself. So I can decide anything by myself. I’m scared of suicide. But I’m tied of pretending that everything is fine. And no one cares about me even if I cry. They don’t want to get in trouble. So they ignore. I’ve cared about friends, family … When they had […]
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I really want to see a psychologist about my problems. A while back when my mom found out I was cutting I went to a counselor, and it helped a little bit, but she was basically a school counselor. I want to tell my mom that I think the things that are wrong with me aren’t temporary because sometimes they go away but they come back pretty regularly. I’ve felt pretty awful mentally for a long time (probably the last three or four years) and I don’t know how to tell my mom that I want help. I feel like she won’t take me seriously, […]