I just had another weird dream a little while ago! I had a dream that a reporter from a TV station in South Florida, which is known for it’s tabloid sensationalistic fucking garbage in their “news” wanted to do an interview with me to talk about my experience with being into auto erotic asphyxia. By the way, I’m not going to mention what TV station this is, but it is known for the most extreme tabloid sensationalistic fucking garbage in the “news” in the United States, if not the entire world! I agreed to do the interview as long as it is […]
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its the most.beautiful release of human emotion. the feeling of getting choked up . a lump in the throat that can only be release through the exits of a tear shed. crying is not weakness its all the strength built up so much that it turns to.liquid solution also.know.as a tear. crying feels amazing its almost like an orgasm the way it makes u feel. but in a different way ofcourse. i love crying. just not in front of others.
besides crying idk y but i love.gettig angry i feel.so.powerful and.less.fearfull. ii love.to say what i am feeling to get it all out.
Mike is her passion. You’re just an orgasm for her when she can’t be with him. You can’t ever be anything more than that for her. You hurt her too deeply when you left her alone. Just give up. You can never make her happy. You can never satisfy her. You know, deep down inside, that you’ve lost a part of her that you fell in love with, and now, it’s easier for her to have passion with anyone but you. Now just drag the blade down your wrist and be done with the pain. You suffered as well. You were alone, too. But all […]
My days don’t do anything but get harder n harder.
I’m not sure if the universe is at fault or I am.
I just know the tangible feeling of hate all to well. Its sooo lovely. Kind of like an aphrodisiac.
I just know for years I have been tasting the salty dissatisfaction of my own tears to the point where crying being extinct. Only to lead to crying feeling needed, strained, feeling, having feeling, much better than an orgasm. No one knows the severity.
I have been contemplating the final act for weeks on end. My roomate just left for work so the apartment is mine if I choose to do so. The only way out is a rope, I dont have access to any pills this time. I think about the actuall moment of loosing conscieness. I have a video of a person which posted his suicide online from hanging. I’ve watched it 10 or 20 times over the last year and a half. His body isn’t completely suspended meaning he could have stood up at any point before passing out to stop his suicide. I have never […]