Painful Life

I have found that I worked all my life for Woman who did not love me. I am the youngest of my family and not very good with the other sex. I fear being alone all my life It is a very painful life I have no one and wish too die without shaming my family with my suicide I know God is good but I think some people are going too hell no matter what just like some people are born beautiful are rich.I just wish too leave this painful life.If you could help me I would be in you’re debt.