I have been passively suicidal all my life. I know, some say there is no way, but I remember wanting to die at 7. I was not abused overly much. My dad a little to harsh with corporal punishment. My mom never said I was stupid, but she always gave me a look or used a tone that said I was stupid. I guess she had no patience. idk. I was always depressed. Borderline personality I was told once, but never stuck with therapy. I have had more jobs and sexual encounters than I can remember. I just can’t stick with anything. Then get all […]
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I have lost my lust for life many years ago. At first I thought it was a phase that I would grow out of but I realize that the older I get, the more I lose the desire to live. I don’t have any glaring problems with my life. I have a decent job and I don’t have any pressures, but I find the only pleasure I get out of life is from sleeping. I sleep with a tank of helium (and tubing, gas mask, etc) under my bed because it gives me comfort to know I have the option available […]