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Searching… [Error] (Happiness not found)

by AJokeOfFate 3/30/2015

written by AJokeOfFate

It’s funny.

I claim to have no friends, no one that i trust, yet i am constantly on this search to find someone i can trust thoroughly, someone i can share every stupid idea or deepest secret with.

Yet i know that such a thing is unlikely. Why, you may ask (or probably not since pretty much no one is going to read this)? Because though I’m the type of person that likes to be left alone, i also desire to be seen as special, unique, etc. I want to revel in others’ awe of me (does that make sense?).

I want to fall in […]

3/30/2015 9 comments

“And how did you meet?”

by impossible_girl 3/28/2015

written by impossible_girl

A comment exchange led to a sudden consideration of what would happen if you ended up meeting someone from on SP in person and becoming friends/partners/whatever. (That’s happened, I believe?) I mean, what would you say if someone asked where you met each other? “I. Uh. Online. We’ll go with online.”

And, yeah, there will be the wise-asses among you who will happily tell people where you met. I’m well aware. 😛

3/28/2015 15 comments

Reasons I want to live and die

by transition32 3/27/2015

written by transition32

These are the reasons that I want die:

1. I’m unique
2. I have Asperger’s
3. I feel isolated
4. I will never fall in love with anyone!
5. Most people in this world suck!
6. I won’t have to be afraid anymore and my anxiety will be gone for good!
7. I’m stinky and I smell!
8. I get overwhelmed so easily!
9. Humanity keeps sinking to lower and lower lows!
10. Being naked when I hang myself makes me very vulnerable, so I need to be successful with ending my life, so I won’t be hurt anymore!
11. As the late great Wendy O Williams said, “this world doesn’t make much sense”!
12. Just thinking about […]

3/27/2015 4 comments

by Sammi6xoxo 3/27/2015

written by Sammi6xoxo

Yeah. Okay. I have a thing for roses.

Dear ex who’s name I will not reveal. Lets call him Jeff.

Dear Jeff,

Does love mean practically stalking someone and trying to guilt them into being with you? I’m pretty sure it doesn’t. I attract some Really clingy men and I’m just not an overly affectionate person. I don’t want to stand in the middle of a store and do things that make people question how long […]

3/27/2015 8 comments

I get it

by confused 3/26/2015

written by confused

I received the results today. It hurts so much.

I’m not allowed to cry. I’m not allowed to feel devastated over not getting what I worked my ass off for. I’m not allowed to dwell on the what ifs. I’m not allowed to be in pain because I just found out that those hours-days-months-years I spent was useless. I’m not allowed to feel bad for failing.

I’m supposed to be strong. I’m supposed to get the fuck up if I fall down and move on, move forward. I get it. I get what I’m supposed to do.

But I can’t.

I’m not the strong person you think I am.

I […]

3/26/2015 1 comment

so fucking hideous

by ackerman 3/25/2015

written by ackerman

I’m usually more eloquent than shouting obscenities at the world, but fuck, no words can articulate the depth of the frustration and hopelessness I feel, swear words can only emphasize their significance. FUCK!!! I’ve suffered from Body Dysmorphic Disorder since I was 13 and it’s fucking killing me, it has ruined everything good in my life, my academic opportunities, my social relationships, the prospect of a romantic relationship, the chance of me achieving higher success in life, it’s all gone to shit because I fucking hate myself. Say the same things as everyone else says to me, I don’t fucking care I’ve heard it all […]

3/25/2015 5 comments

lost my mind (contains blood).

by munckin 3/24/2015

written by munckin

These pictures are from today….I am the person who never did this… but the combination of not being able to trust new contacts, thus making it impossible to life a normal life and the fact that my ex girlfriend might have given me soa’s;there have been 10+ guys so the chances are rather high…. has removed all boundaries which i did have before.

This carnage […]

3/24/2015 10 comments

Isn’t a belief in a god just another form of grief?

by wndozh8er 3/22/2015

written by wndozh8er

Think about it –

DENIAL – death can’t be final right? god is in control right?. We need someone that will save us. We think – this can’t be all there is! our suffering must have a purpose right? Were gonna be in a better place after we die right? my grandpa is in heaven and his body is not his anymore but just a shell right?

ANGER – God why are you not listening to me? I been praying and trying to be a good person! fuck you!

BARGAINING – To me this what prayer is! I promise god ill be a good person if you help […]

3/22/2015 12 comments

THE PURE ENERGY OF GOD

by easybud 3/20/2015

written by easybud

this is the truth for all
God of this Universe is the one that is Accountable for the ENTIRE HUMAN RACE ON THIS GOD”S EARTH
we are NOT GUILTY OF NOTHING… MANKIND RACE IS SO NOT GUILTY … GODS ENERGY IS THE ONE THAT DID IT TO ALL OF US HERE. so if you commit sucide do not worry about nothing. One day I will be their also and I know for a fact that this Energy God knows who did what!!! ENERGY GOD DID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if NOT for this Energy God NONE of us would Never have such a Evil Negative Life on this earth […]

3/20/2015 6 comments

Might have OD

by Dcanttakeit 3/20/2015

written by Dcanttakeit

I’m terrible with writing so please excuse how shitty this might come out. My name is Dorothy I am 18 years old and I have been depressed since about 9th grade. I grew up happy-mostly anyways. I had some issues with my mom but i was fine without her i don’t think that is the reason for my depression. I have not been diagnosed and not many people know about it. As in even my best friend doesn’t know. I have cut before but no one has noticed. My friends did in the first few years of high school but they have long forgotten now. […]

3/20/2015 3 comments

And this…is me.

by Agelki 3/18/2015

written by Agelki

My name is Sandra, i’m 17 years old. I’m a daugther, a sister, a granddaugther, a niece, a cousin. I love animals, rain and reading. I don’t have any true friends. I’m introverted, i’m silent, i don’t like talking, i’m always sick, i feel very weak, i love being alone, i hate crying, i have lost a lot of people that are important to me, i have never fully enjoyed life, i’m not a loving person and i don’t even understand what love is, i’m insecure, i’m a really anxious person, i’m quite self destructive, i always try to give people hope, though i […]

3/18/2015 4 comments

I Don’t Want People to Miss Me When I Die

by Lovebug4142 3/18/2015

written by Lovebug4142

OK so im 16 an I do pain pills and I cut myself, and I know one day i am going to be so sad that im going to take all the pain pills I have and be done with this messed up world. So, I have to start pushing people away. I don’t want anyone to be sad when I die. I don’t want anyone to attend my funeral. I don’t want anyone to cry. I don’t want anyone to care. I’m worthless, stupid, and a waist of space. I already hurt the people I love, so let’s just start pushing everyone away so […]

3/18/2015 2 comments

help

by sunshine4 3/16/2015

written by sunshine4

hello 🙂

what bullying and would you consider this bullying?

alright. since the start of the year I have met these group of girls (I am a girl) who have made me felt very upset. I am quiet and shy and normally don’t speak up about these things. it first started when they just stared at me, they would laugh at me and try to humilate me. 2 weeks after I had met them they would speak really loudly bad things about me then laugh. it really hurt my reputation and now I have no friends. I was recovering from self harm and it made me want […]

3/16/2015 4 comments

Want to sleep

by impossible_girl 3/15/2015

written by impossible_girl

I look at the shoebox I keep my various prescription pill bottles in, and I wish to gods I could be certain that I wouldn’t just wake up in a day, in three days, in a week in the local ICU and another useless stay in the mental health unit and another 90-day court settlement. Attempting suicide is a civil offense in Wisconsin, you see, so a person already upset because they survived then gets to go — via satellite television — before a judge and work out an agreement for treatment. Nice, huh?

I barely talked my psychiatrist out of having me hospitalized […]

3/15/2015 4 comments

She

by Sammi6xoxo 3/15/2015

written by Sammi6xoxo

SHE. That’s how I refer to her when I talk to you. Because it hurts to see you happy with someone else. I see pictures of the two of you and it Kills me. I want nothing more than to be yours again.. and then I remember how you treated me. Every time you made me feel worthless and unwanted. Every time you spat my name as though it were some foul substance that your body was rejecting. I was never a part of ‘us’ because you were with me out of pity. So Why do I still speak to you? I think part of […]

3/15/2015 0 comment

by Matt 3/14/2015

written by Matt

the person you knew is dead

let go of who i am now but never forget who i was

why won’t you call

any of you

i’m just tired of being forgotten

i’m not doing this to hurt you

but i want you to hurt

3/14/2015 1 comment

How would I be remembered?

by Dropkick 3/12/2015

written by Dropkick

Sometimes I wonder about this. If I were to commit suicide. Is that all people would remember about me? I mean, do you think people would remember me for who I was? Or would all the good things I’ve ever done or ever accomplished be overshadowed by it. Would I just be remembers as that sad and weak person who killed himself?

3/12/2015 2 comments

my parental units

by whyohwhy1113 3/11/2015

written by whyohwhy1113

I snapped at my step mom today and I feel like a total ass. It was for something so minor I don’t even know why I did it.

I just feel so guilty all the time for everything. I feel guilty for taking up space for living.

I just don’t deserve it. I’m such a horrible fucked up person. My “friends” who were once my biggest supporters turned against me and started saying these horrible things about me. I believe them. I hate myself so its easier to believe the bad over the good. I can’t take compliments.

I’m sorry this is so long. I hope you’re having […]

3/11/2015 1 comment

Making the hard choice but most like me won’t.

by BCT80 3/9/2015

written by BCT80

For starters, this is not one of those “talk me out of it” cries for help. This is a decision almost a year in the making. I do not suffer from depression, I have not made this decision lightly and I have done so sober and only during daylight to avoid any emotional bias.

I did my dry run this past weekend, my equipment is all setup and I felt 0 panic so this is happening.

Now for why: I am a pedophile. I am not however a child molester. The man that made me when I was 11, over two decades ago was however. I wonder […]

3/9/2015 1 comment

The Grand Illusion

by macd123 3/8/2015

written by macd123

Funny, she once said to me that I must have an incredible life. She used to listen to me when I rambled on about traveling here and traveling there – she was young and I wore the mask well. Once again I was reminded that people really don’t know – the space between us is too grand. I was a hero to her and a joke to myself – I feared that if we hung out much longer she would see that I was just roadkill. How worldly was I – my well being hung on a thread at the corner of her smile. So […]

3/8/2015 0 comment

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