I promised I won’t do it, so instead I live this torture… knowing I’m unlovable, knowing that I will never understand things the way they should be understood. I’m supposed to pretend everything is ok and my positive outlook will suddenly transform into a positive life… it hasn’t happened yet, so why should I believe it to be true. I don’t want anything anymore, no dreams, no aspirations… when I make promises, I keep them. Once again, I’ve lost nearly everything I hold close to my heart. I don’t want to keep going on like this… but I will, […]
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Positive Outlook
I’ve been hanging onto life by a thread and
have used up all of the hope and optimism that I had to keep
on living. I have been trying to keep a positive outlook on my life. I’ve wanted the same thing that everyone else wants, happiness.
Maybe I’ve already served my purpose and therefore have nothing more to give.
Thus is not something
My wife has been put through hell by being involved with my mishaps, bad luck, and depression. I just want then to know that I love them and I hope they will find how to forgive me.