It feels like I died and no one told me. As if a cog imploded and I in my sweet ignorance just continued on my merry way. It hurts with and without the medication. There is no relief. How do people even do this. I rally and step forward only to lose the strength to stand. Am I someone’s idea of amusement, perhaps? A failed experiment of some kind, decaying ever so slightly. Nothing a little spit won’t fix. I’m tired. So tired now. Have I paid my dues yet? I’ve lived enough. Let it end… Please.
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Rally
i wish today was my last day that i would cry
i wish today was the last day i hurt someone really badly without trying
i wish i didn’t feel fat or ugly
i wish i didn’t feel stupid and sad
but all this wishing is getting me no where
i have tried to fix what i cant
i have tried so many times
so i am sorry to all those i have hurt i am sorry i cant stop thinking like this. i am so sorry but you’ll never understand how sorry i am
maybe if i was dead i wouldn’t hurt you i wouldn’t do anything wrong
i just wish that i […]