today i morn the loss of my good frends dan edwords i fownd his bodey this morening he was a frend and a brother to me in his note was a letter wich he had read befor me its was open (for a few weeks hed been opeaning my letters for some reson) and he put a note inside saying “do well i love you dont …” the rest was to messey or coverd in blood to read so crying aand stagaring on my feet i take it from the guy who has just given it to me and i reed the note but i […]
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Aw…I went to psychiatrist this morning…as I expected he offered medicines for a treatment (therapy sucks)…I didn’t accepted, I just told him I’ve been planning suicide for months, he was very understanding, I didn’t think he believed me though.
Well, I’m going to do tomorrow, problably (it isn’t up to me, I need my family to go out for some hours).
I planned to inhale cook gas, which is very toxic because it’s not natural gas.It’s painless…
I talked to my mom, tried to give her some confort, get the things less painful to her, I know she will get hurt anyway…obviously […]
I know many of you appreciate a good read… I’m almost finished with this book and trust me….you need to read it….verrryyyy enlightening…
anyways….thats all….have a great day guys….and remember SP is always here to help 😀
For those who read my post yesterday, I feel the need to give you a feedback on how things went last night.
So I did talk with my friend. I was really anxious about it and unsure if she was the right person to tell everything. Some of you gave me a little strength to just try it. and I gave it a shot. I’ve always been a better writter than a talker when it comes to feelings and I thought I wouldn’t be able to express it clearly enough. But I did, and I guess that the way I told her things were ok ’cause […]
I know that most of you won’t read this or care or anything but, I am depressed. I feel so worthless, stupid and I feel like a disappointment of a human being. I’ve seen amazing people on the news and at school that  do incredible things for everyone and then I’m just there, wasting space and not doing anything.  When I first started to feel this way, I was only 11  and I thought that God hated me and that he was putting me through hell for a test but, that isn’t fair. Its been a year now and I still feel the same crap. The sad part is that if I were […]
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