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Depressed aquarius

by imperfectionist 7/17/2013

written by imperfectionist

To whomever reads this

I see a therapist to deal with my anxiety disorder that is heavily plagued with panic attacks and I am often ‘scared’ into a state of immobility where I cannot think move or breathe for short periods of time.

Anyway, we were discussing characteristics of what a person with anxiety exhibits and whether there are any common links. He had studied all his patients (and aside from other details he wasn’t able to release under confidentiality laws) he was able to tell me 64% of his patients were aquarius.

It is funny that this statistic exists. A profiling overview of an aquarius person states […]

7/17/2013 12 comments

Back home after failing

by ISmiled 6/15/2013

written by ISmiled

So here I am after failing the first time. Let’s go back to the night of the 26th of May, for the full story.

I was feeling awful that night, it was another one of my bouts of guilt and depression. But this one was different, while normally, they happen for no apparent reason and last for a few hours, half a day at most, this one lasted for 3 days, after an incident with a boy from my class. We’ll say he wasn’t well-liked, and he was awkward, sweaty and not the best looking either. He came up and asked to be my partner for […]

6/15/2013 5 comments

Lucid Dreaming

by earbuds 6/13/2013

written by earbuds

Anyone know what it’s like to lucid dream? In general I like dreaming more than life, and many days I feelÂ depressed the very moment I wake up. But when you know you’re dreaming andÂ have total control overÂ it, it’s incredible. It tends to happen for me when I take a nap after being awake for just a few hours. Last semesterÂ on certain daysÂ I only had morning classes with nothing to do for the rest of the day, so I’d come home and go back to bed. This is when I would lucid dream.

It’s been awhile since I’ve had a dream where I was in complete control, […]

6/13/2013 0 comment

fownd by mum

by why i dont no 5/18/2013

written by why i dont no

under the rode brig

wet hot and shit filld

needels allarownd

bottels of beer

drunk to erly

mum fownd me

in the wreck of my life

run away from mum and him

im a littel dick in his mind

sumer holds no good just shit

frends gon

famaly wish i was dead

and dont blame them

acustic gutar song wighting

leting my pane flow trow me

1 deep breth

2 3 4 go wightÂ play just get it out

if not the other semfor of life cuting

that dos it

feeling beter allredey

and then talk to my self for the rest of the day

so luckey

to be here

5/18/2013 0 comment

Bored

by Jess 4/8/2013

written by Jess

All day long its the same thing. The same boring classes, the same horrible people, the same note plastered on my locker. “DORK”. The same 2-3 hours sitting all alone at home, the same rest of the day being yelled at and being told to shut up when I try to start a pleasant conversation. The same insomnia, trying desperately to fall asleep but my brain wont shut the fuck up, the same exhaustion I feel when I finally shut off my alarm the next morning. Im so tired of this, Im exhausted and bored. I think Im finally done.

4/8/2013 6 comments

Her story (hosptial)

by Schneiderang 9/24/2012

written by Schneiderang

Her story

Why wont he just come over. I thought in my head. WHY! WHY! WHY! The blood that keep dripping from my arm wouldnâ€™t stop. In the back ground the song Easy by Rascal Flatts was on. I looked at the clock and seen it was 10 oâ€™clock. I dropped to the groundn and started pulling on my hair, screaming and balling my eyes out. I am curled up into a ball not being able to move..

â€œI hate you!â€

â€œ I know I’m sorry.â€

â€œYou donâ€™t know mom! You are putting me in her just like a animal!â€

â€œI’m trying to help you!â€

Then the door slammed open. […]

9/24/2012 2 comments

Problems & Pills

by cwardrop26 8/17/2012

written by cwardrop26

When people are soÂ againstÂ people being on medication or think it is unnatural and the ones who take pills are fucked up and can’t deal with their own problems and just want to feel good. Â I feel very hurt . Some pill bottles are filled with drugs so you can stop wanting to die all of the time. Some pill bottles are filled with drugs that help you fall asleep at night Some of those pill bottles are used to help you . And yes it sucks that people can’t have fun anymore and i understand , but sometimes it is the only thing you have […]

8/17/2012 2 comments

there’s nothing to try for anymore

by Faith 5/4/2012

written by Faith

I remember the first time I actually thought about suicide. I was doing the dishes, and I broke a coffee pot. The only damn coffee pot. I was so sick of everything, of doing every fucking thing wrong, I just started screaming. And then that’s when I heard my mother’s voice. She said, “The knife’s in the drawer. Cut off your singer and you’ll be dead in five minutes. I walked over to the drawer, pulled out the knife, and pressed it to my finger, then my wrist. Hard. Until I winced and pulled it back. I spent the rest of the day sobbing under […]

5/4/2012 4 comments

A dream that lead to an attempt suicide and depression

by Who am I 5/1/2012

written by Who am I

just before i start of how i attempted suicide and got depression over a dream i had, i would like to say this might be long and goes for 1500 words.. sorry for so long.. please read it and thanks 🙂

This happend last year when i was 14 years old, i am currently 15 years old…. here what happend. This is in term 3 year 8. IÂ fell asleep on a sunday night, that night i had a dream, i was staring into the eyes of this really beautiful blonde girl… it felt like minutes, just her and me in black emptyness staring into each others […]

5/1/2012 3 comments

Alone with the pain again…

by mariz 3/22/2012

written by mariz

This recent days, I’m starting to be able to really cope up and enjoy my days… with my friends who support me emotionally. I am so scared to go home and face the rest of the day alone because of the painful emotions and thoughts I’ll have to face alone… so I spend a lot of time with my friends. I am starting to forget. But now it’s already summer break. I’ll be alone again, if not alone be with my family who doesn’t even know what I’m going through. I’ll be alone with ths books and internet. Ths pain… I still feel it.. I […]

3/22/2012 0 comment