That night…tall grass bathed in moonlight. The stars sparkle brightly as the North Pole’s breath travels down to where we are and dances across your cheek. Tall grass and white flowers..in that place  next to the brook and that wise old tree. We would stretch out between the roots under the spot where you carved our initials when we were young. The place where we fell in love, where you first tried to kiss me and I pulled away and ran as you chased me until i tripped over a secret root and you fell on top of me. Dear God we were only 13 and 14 […]
We are children of constant sorrow living in a fallen world, for we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the
rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high place.
“As I walk this land of broken dreams
I have visions of many things
But happiness is just an illusion
filled with sadness and confusion
What becomes of a brokenhearted
who had love that’s now departed
I know I’ve got to find
some kind of piece of mine, baa-aaaaby
The roots of love grow all around
But for me they come tumble all down
Every day,heartaches grow a little […]
Kill me to free me
Tis my only option now
Cause I don’t have faith in myself
And ive lost my way long ago
In this storm that I brave to see a better day
I find myself crawling
Clinging to the fragile roots that doth hold me here
For my soul died long agoÂ
I live as a hollow shell
So go ahead and kill me
Send the rest of me to hell
Or release me from this hell
Where today I now dwellÂ
Searching for something else
To stay for, to breathe for, to live for
My tears have fallen for you
For the past the present […]
While I write this i fear of the pain i will cause with this simple action,
But i will confess the true. I have been trying to kill myself for a few
months now. I was learning electrons to make my own defibrillator and will be able to fine all my research under Research on Defibrillations. (Tomboy notes) After a month or two upon finding out that this will not work, I tried to overdose on aspirin. When i didn’t die i did some more research and found out that the mortality rate for an aspirin overdose of more than 300 mg/kg is less than […]
I’ve decided to get a tattoo. A ‘subtle’ reminder for myself of my last attempt. Not that I think I’ll be forgetting it anytime soon. I guess it’s supposed to remind me that the worst is over.
I designed it myself. It is obviously a “tree of life” like image. Hidden in the negative space of the foliage is the word ‘forgiven’, and hidden in the roots is the date of my last attempt.
Here’s what it will look like
