I can’t do it anymore. Or can I? Even my own brain can’t decide what it wants  anymore. I use to be happy, I used to enjoy life but not it seems that that enjoyment is more and more fleeting. I seem to have about 1 good day in life every month, but even that seems to be becoming a struggle. Everything I had in life I lost, everything that was good and worth living for was lost. The only man who I have ever loved broke up with me for someone else, I lost my job due to a serious knee injury whilst playing […]
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Rugby
I’ve made the decision to give myself one last throw of the dice of life. I’ve been feeling really down and suicidal for the past few weeks, yet over the last couple of days things seem to be looking up. I’ve found the strength to say no to the person who was causing my depression, something I’ve not been able to for a while, I’ve started to become pro active in my social life, signing up to play rugby and accepting a few offers of going out from work colleagues. Maybe I’m fooling myself and just prolonging the inevitable but I think having one last […]