Over the last 3 or 4 years, I have been sinking further into despair. I am now at a point where I am ready to exit. The times I have been most at peace over the last few years have generally been when I have been sleeping; I figure that a sleep where I never wake up would be a good thing. I know this might sound like a First World Problem, but my descent began when I got made redundant during the GFC. Since then, I have had to take jobs that have paid less, and also had to use up all of my savings during […]
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One could say that my existence could be described thusly: my legs, my feet, directed by myself to carry me through a jungle containing thick brush and trees, thorns and poisonously vicious creatures; the thick vegetation and dangerous animals representing difficulties in life: a child of low socioeconomy, biologically harmful setbacks in life, unadulterated stress. Carried on my back — a part of myself — is an organic syndrome begetting bipolar disorder.
There I was trekking through the arduous journey of the first part of my life, running to break free of the grasping branches and hungry animals, trying to make it into the clearing which […]
I am very tired of life and I am tired of MY life. My only wish is to die painlessly in my sleep. I have endured numerous setbacks in my life, and I cannot handle any more failures. I did not think a person could feel so much pain and still go on living. I feel another “disaster” coming on and I don’t want to be alive to deal with the aftermath. The people in my world do not deserve to have the confort & support that I provide for them. I consider my family & my “friends” to be burdensome.Â
I do believe in God, […]