she says she’s not making it an official diagnosis because i “don’t need another mental illness to add to the list”

my paranoia is getting worse.  i have work to do and i don’t want to take my Seroquel because it knocks me out.  my mom made me take it.  i don’t want to sleep.  the minute i go to bed i

holy shit.  it’s really gotten this bad.  i can’t finish my fucking sentence because i’m convinced that if i think about it or say it or write it, it will happen.  i’ve been obsessively knocking on wood.  i need to.   why?  because if i don’t do it the the  *IEU*(E8uy9e89ye89uy i can’t write it i can’t write it I can’t write it FUCK

i’ve been making […]