my paranoia is getting worse. i have work to do and i don’t want to take my Seroquel because it knocks me out. my mom made me take it. i don’t want to sleep. the minute i go to bed i
holy shit. it’s really gotten this bad. i can’t finish my fucking sentence because i’m convinced that if i think about it or say it or write it, it will happen. i’ve been obsessively knocking on wood. i need to. why? because if i don’t do it the the *IEU*(E8uy9e89ye89uy i can’t write it i can’t write it I can’t write it FUCK
i’ve been making my parents knock on wood too and i lash out if they don’t. because if they don’t if they don’t if they don’t if the hsKJKJHBJKDBJHKHJKUIY#eewu8e3ep3ei####I#IO#U#U3oii3u
holy shit i can’t. don’t say it don’t write it don’t think it don’t don’t don’t don’t
every time i try i freak out and smash my hands on the keyboard
fuckfuck fuck fuck fuck
16 MAY 2021 // 22:19 PST
i haven’t eaten in nine hours. i can’t. it makes me feel sick.
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May I email you when I get home from work?
I would really prefer that nobody contact me via email
I wish I had something meaningful to say. I can’t imagine the mental cyclone you’re dealing with…its got to be insane to have to handle. I hope that at some point it lessens to a more manageable degree.
thank you. I really appreciate it.
I feel like I’m going crazy
I have experienced something like this before because of my OCD. I hope you’ll feel a bit better soon, its really horrible when it happens. Take care, try to eat and drink enough water.
thank you, I will try my best
Hey, I haven’t seen you around for a while. Are you doing okay?
i have no idea