Day after day I sit in my room and watch the sunrise from my bed. Night after night I wake up to the sounds of my family getting ready for bed. I’m so afraid. I’m alone in every sense of the word, and it terrifies me. The fact that nobody will remember me after my inevitable death makes me sick. The fact that my family would only show up to my funeral because they have to nauseates me. The fact that I’m the one pushing people away makes me see red. I can’t understand my own emotions and the only thing I can think about is […]
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Sleep Patterns
I haven’t been eating, or sleeping properly. I introvert randomly. I’m changing and I don’t want to, my sleep patterns are irregular, on days that i actually sleep I sleep for at least 14 hours other days though I get o-2 hours. I’ts not healthy. I eat once a day. I find myself wanting to cut in the middle of the day but I can’t. I go into the stall hoping for a release but I can’t break the skin I try and I could just fine a couple of nights ago. I’m slowly losing my mind…I am happy immediately with my friends but as soon as they leave […]