It never ceases to blow my fucking mind every time a thought of you goes through my head. Everything you ever said haunts me and really, really hurts. I think I actually know what hate feels like now. How could I ever forgive you for this?
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Spinning
All I can produce are tears. Tears of anger, frustration, irritation or just sadness. I really can’t tell the difference. I can just feel the wetness run down my cheeks and the salty taste on my lips. My chest caving in and a sharp pain in my stomach, as if someone piercing it with a knife. My heart is spinning and I can’t seem to tie down on a single thought…I’m lost..and it feels like I’m in this dark corner, forever alone, sadness consuming.
Do You Love Me?
You’re nice and sweet
And pretty too,
But i need to know
What i have to do.
One day it’s yes,
The next it’s no,
Is it all
Just one big show?
I feel like a puppet
And you the puppet master,
Spinning me into another
New devastating disaster.
So just answer this
And all will be,
Better because
I’ll feel set free.
Do you or don’t you
Have feelings for me,
Because i did and do
And i still believe.
That there’s hope still alive
Hiding somewhere,
Deep inside of you
Yet you’re still unware.
Yes or No
Is all im asking for,
I don’t know why
But it’s time to open or shut this door.
Because the wait
Is killing me,
And […]
In my dreams, I always dreamt I cut myself so deep that I’d lay there dying in an ocean of my own blood. For so many nights, I dreamed IÂ bled more than normal, I dreamt I lay there as the life blood flows from my body. It always has the same end. Everyone I loved runs in my room in blinding fury. They look at me with deadly smiles and wicked eyes. Charging towards my barely conscience body, they reach into my skin and rip out my veins. And I scream…I scream so loud over their animalistic laughter. I’m drowning in my own blood, but […]
I see the dishes clatter and fall.
I feel your breath on my face as you scream at me.
You hit my face.
My arms.
My ears.
I taste my salty blood.
At least the ringing in my ears is gone.
I see mother crying
Almost as if she’s begging you to stop.
You swing at me again.
My face to the floor.
How do I explain these bruises?
I won’t tell.
I won’t tell.
I’ll just smile to the wary eyes.
I’ll just wave it off.
No big deal.
No one will know your problem.
I don’t know why I exist
But maybe I’ll live to […]