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State Of Panic

Ramblings of madman/ Voice of a Prophet

by RuinsOfTheVoid 7/18/2013

written by RuinsOfTheVoid

I have anxiety, stress. When I wake up everyday I am in a state of panic. It takes about 30 mins of meditation to slow to heart rate from about 130 down to 70 beats per minute. My girlfriend says I shout in my sleep sometimes. After I slow my heart I can think straight again. But it takes about another hour before I can actually eat anything. So I get up every day around 6.

I can feel my heart all the time. When someone says something to me, I can actually feel how my body has reacted to it in my pulse and in […]

7/18/2013 0 comment

I completely ruined my life

by dvs333 10/17/2012

written by dvs333

I’ve completely ruined my life. Â But I don’t think I ever had one.

Things started spiriling out of control earlier this summer when I quit my job. I’ve been doing contract software development at home for years. It’s a life of sad isolation. I sit in my den and type away for days straight. The job was just going bad, I was losing interest and my boss new it. He pushed me and I snapped. It was sad, because when it started it seemed like there would be so much potential.

Anyway, something happened afterwards that made me realize I didn’t want to be a programmer anymore. […]

10/17/2012 2 comments