Wednesday I decided to do what most of you told me to do, travel. I went out, got a boat ticket, and went to Puerto Rico. No hotels, no houses, no other people.Just me and my car. I was having the time of my life speeding in the hills and going round corners like a mad man until i heard 3 loud bangs and the engine turned off…. when i lifted my bonnet up my engine was fried, my battery was soaked in yellow liquid, and my exhaust was cracked…. The one thing i looked after in this world was dead….. I had to wait […]
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So I made the noose today and hung it in my outside storage. So whenever I’m ready and I feel the urge… I’ve been cutting and purging for the last few days… it seems to help for a moment but not completely. I’ve been in the hospital twice and I go to therapy wkly and am on an antidepressant but I don’t remember a time when my depression and thoughts have honestly been this bad. I dunno how to control my emotions… I’ve been diagnoised with borderlin personality disorder and am very embarressed by what I’m going thru. I dunno if it will be tonite, […]
I’ve been in the hospital twice in less than a month and tried to commit suicide 3 times… and the last 2 days I’ve been back in bed with hardly any contact from anyone and I’m not going to contact people and be a burden to them but honestly I’m going crazy… and afraid it won’t be too much longer… I just want to die, but I guess its my fault b.c. I’m posting positive sayings on facebook like I’m excited to see what God has for my future. My mom has asked for my schedule but I don’t want to deal with her because […]