Today was the day that I was supposed to die, but I have failed once again. All week I have been getting my affairs in order, and I was finally ready to depart from this world. I woke up, went to my one and only class, and left class feeling completely and utterly at ease, and at peace with what I was about to do. My letter was written, I had said my goodbyes, I was ready. I drove home from class, and started tearing up a little bit in the car, but that quickly subsided when I realized that everything […]
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What’s the point of suicidal thoughts if they won’t ever be translated into action? They’re just torturous. Getting better looks like a giant, long, leaking tunnel- almost impossible to move through. Yet death isn’t an option. How do you remedy this?
Hi everyone, so I’ve been reading posts for weeks now and finally decided to register. I’ve been depressed for years now. I’ve been hospitalized at least 6 times in the last year. My last hospitalization I took over 100 Tylenol and was close to death. Now I am suicidal again and have been wanting to kill myself for weeks. I see my psychiatrist every week now and she has been so close to admitting to the hospital a couple times. Some of my fam and friends say I should listen to my Dr. and go to the hospital but I’ve been so many times and […]
It is hot and sunny out. 12:30pm. I hate feeling this way when it looks like that outside. When it’s daylight. Feeling suicidal in the sense that it’s more comforting to think about suicide then it is to think about how awful and worthless I am, but I’m not sure I would actually attempt something.
I got a new job. A real job. Real money. Real benefits. I should be ecstatic right now…and I was yesterday. So much so that my head was completely spinning with lists. Things I need to do. Things I need to buy. Things I need to be. Spin spin spin. I […]
I often wonder what everyone else is thinking. Do they think the same way as I do? Do they have scars under their sleeves? Are they suicidal? I’m 17 and in my final year of high school. I’m sure there is some statistic that tells you one in every x amount of people have depression, and y amount of those people are suicidal. But I really don’t believe in statistics, everyone is different, you know. No one would ever guess how my mind works. I am the quiet girl. She sits in the front seat, laughs with her friends, smiles, comforts people, maintains average grades. […]
When I feel like I can’t make it, coming here makes my day a lil easier. Just having a place where I feel like I can talk openly about situation really helps. I thanks everyone for listening and talking with me. I may still feel suicidal or like I am getting close to the edge, but at least here I am not looked down because of it…
I’m not sure where to start with this, so I’ll just pick a place and begin. Currently I don’t have any friends or anyone to talk to. I don’t want to get attached to anyone because if I do decide to go through with suicide, then it’ll just be another person I hurt.
I’m 21 and over the last five years, my life has been nothing but oppression. High school was hell. I could not fit in with anyone and was occasionally picked on because of my unnaturally high voice for a guy. I basically isolated myself from everyone since I was ashamed of my voice. […]
I was ok for a little while….wasn’t having any suicidal thoughts until WHAM.
Now once again, I’m questioning if I’m going to make it to 21.
Okay so i’m a teen and like a lot of people on here i have been suicidal lately. Now i’m not the best writter so sorry in advance but i just gotta get this off my chest. Like i said before im a teen and i just feel so depressed all the time. I have all of these issues wrong with me i have ADHD, depression, OCD, cold sweats, anxiety, trouble sleeping. really bad acne scars, suicidal, no friends or anyone to talk too and a lazy eye (which may seem kind of silly but im really self conscious about it). Iv tried suicide 2 […]
I don’t know what brought me to this website. First I was googling resources on suicide prevention and it brought up a link, and here I am. To start things off, I’m not the kind of girl that would be found on here, according to my friends I’m a social butterfly, friendly, sweet and kind hearted. Why I may be those things, I’m also a lot for things no one could even imagine. My family would be completely devastated if they knew the thought of suicide was even slipping into my mind. Of course, people always say “you should see a councillor and get some […]
Hi everyone,
I’m not sure if anyone will read this or care but I’ve accepted that boiling up my demons inside of me is not the answer, so here’s my story.
I’ve only felt this while for a little over the year, and I’m not exactly sure what triggered it. I have a stable family, a stable education, and a stable set of friends. I have a roof over my head and I have a lot to be thankful for. But I had one sad day too many, and one day I just collapsed into this mindset. And I haven’t gotten out.
I wrote a paragraph of reasons […]
So I am new to this obviously. Um but I just wanted to tell my story to people who want to listen and who don’t feel the pressure to listen to me.
Anyways I have been depressed and suicidal for a while now. It all started with an English paper titled “This I Believe” and I was asked to write about what I truely believe in. In my essay I stated that I believed I would become this gilded girl, beautiful on the outside, but damaged and hallow on the inside. I believed that I would serve an existance of pain. Writing […]
Reminder that no one really cares about suicidal people these days. Why? Because no one takes them seriously. Why? Because if a mental condition is in your head, no one can see it and people have to take your word that it’s there. The perfect plan for attention whores, most frequently on this site. So I see 50 posts a night about killing yourselves and rarely does anyone do it. They come back saying “My attempt failed.” But honestly, it’s easy to kill yourself. I understand that it’s not always a hit and win, but still, the success rate has to be much higher than […]
Is it possible that suicidal depression is a biological response to over-population?
I’ve already had mine kissed. I wish everyone who has scars know how it feels to have someone who loves you kiss your scars, and promising you with their lips, that they’ll never let you do it again.
I’m planning on it. girl at work gave me whole bottle of caffeine pills. didn’t know I’m suicidal. stole some vodka from my dad’s liquor cabinet. tied noose…. I’m so done.
Hi everybody, my name is Dolunay 34y male.
I found myself in this website by chance, I’m not suicidal at all but it shocked me to see all these confused spirits, & it saddens me to see they have reached to this blocked way.
I love offering my help by listening (at least) & I promise to not misjudge or misunderstand, & I’d love to read from anybody. don’t hesitate to send to my email, I’ll reply gladly;
goods_maker@yahoo.com
love you all, have a nice day.
Hi, I’ve just found this site and – due to being bipolar, having Asperger’s syndrome and having physical health problems – since I feel suicidal 99% of the time thought I would join.
Mea culpa; I didn’t read every post – most from 2011 only – but it struck me how intelligent everybody sounds. I really do believe “ignorance is bliss” and unintelligent people can live in a healthy bubble unlike more intelligent ones who just exist.
No idea how I just survived nearly three days incredibly suicidal. I am exhausted. Ready to sleep for a few days. How the fuck did I make it yet again. I cried so much my eyes hurt. I am really only here because my cats. They are my furry angels. One is 13 with cancer. She is doing really well. I am mostly her for her because I don’t trust anyone to take care of her or my other little angels.
I’m sure that most of the world has heard that Robin Williams has passed away by asphyxiation. He died by suicide. Most of us on here are no stranger to depression and suicidal thoughts/tendencies. I’d be willing to guess that everyone here would be understanding but a curious thing happened with Robin’s passing. There has been so much attention on his passing and this “new” mysterious illness that magically gained relevance. Of course, it’s not new and it’s been real for so very long.
I have no right to go on and on about how much I will miss Mr. Williams and how he will forever […]