I wanted to die differently, I want to drown, I want to OD, I want to shoot myself, anything but cancer! I’d jump, I’d hang, I’d chug, anything BUT cancer. I’d like to be hit, I’d like to drift off in my slumber eternally, I’d like to be stabbed, anything but CANCER. fuck cancer, fuck cancer, fuck cancer, fuck cancer, fuck it. I’m sitting in a stupid hostpital, in a stupid gown, with stupid food, stupid and overly chipper nurses, oh and don’t forget the cell enlarging body killing menace, CANCER. At first I thought they were joking, just lightening the mood somehow, “I’m sorry […]
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Thyroid
You left me with the peices.
You left it all to me.
I had to fix my own heart.
While drowning in misery.
You left me broke and scarred.
I burned you left me charred.
You never really cared.
I guess what i thought was special,
was never really there.
(c) too young to feel this way, that’s what our families say. too blind to make it last, should listened, shoulda obeyed, maybe if we did, you woulda stayed.
Too young for a first kiss, too young to feel like this. that’s what all our friends say, shoulda listened shoulda obeyed, maybe if we did, there would […]
You left me with the peices.
You left it all to me.
I had to fix my own heart.
While drowning in misery.
You left me broke and scarred.
I burned you left me charred.
You never really cared.
I guess what i thought was special,
was never really there.
(c) too young to feel this way, that’s what our families say. too blind to make it last, should listened, shoulda obeyed, maybe if we did, you woulda stayed.
Too young for a first kiss, too young to feel like this. that’s what all our friends say, shoulda listened shoulda obeyed, maybe if we did, there would […]
I have had very poor health since the day I was born. Genetic defects result in a very weak immune system, severe asthma and only partially functioning lungs, severe allergies that prevent me from going outside, heart problems which make me feel weak and will likely cut my life short, a bad liver that’s complicating the heart issues, a bad thyroid that adds to the exhaustion, a bad uterus and ovaries that are trying to bleed me to death, and the doctors want to remove, and a screwed up digestive system that limits what I can eat. I also have a degenerative nerve disorder that’s […]
i know this will sound stupid but i honestly dont know what to do anymore. i am a 14 year old girl who suffers from diabetes, coeliacs disease, under active thyroid, and psoriasis. i hate my life! i think i suffer from depression but i dont know? ive never told anyone about how i feel, and at the moment its like everyday is a task and getting through it is very difficult!
i already feel bad posting this because some people are going through so much worse than me but being 14 with psoriasis is a living hell. when my friends look so nice in all of […]
I’m currently at work, my back is killing me, Still, I manage to keep a normal expression on my face, but I’m in pain, my back has been hurting me for the past 3 days and it’s just getting worse, I’ve put icy hot to calm my muscles but still, the pain is there. Last week my hair began to fall out so much, not just what you would expect, like if I run my fingers through, I’d pull out about 20 each time or more, it’s scary, I’m so afraid of brushing it now. Is it because I’m stressed out? Last night my ex […]