i have a friend overseas who i’ve known for around 4 years now.
he’s really important to me. but i’m scared.
i’m scared because he hasn’t betrayed me.
i’m scared because he hasn’t gotten rid of me.
i’m scared because he hasn’t dropped me.
i’m scared because he insists that he cares about me.
i’m terrified of all of it, it’s so foreign to me. to have someone who doesn’t want to break me down until i’m nothing.
whenever he says he cares about me
the only thing i can think of is “i don’t believe you.”