I grew up in the church. Hell, I should say I was the church. At many of the churches I attended, my five older siblings, my parents, the pastor, and I made up the whole congregation. But that didn’t matter. Because the God I knew and loved was there. He was in my church, he was in my thoughts, he was in my life… but somewhere along the lines, one of us left. Now, it’d be easy to point fingers and say that I left. After all, I’m the human being shaped in iniquity, and He’s the all-knowing God. But me? Why would I leave? […]
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I don’t even think people honestly care enough about me to read, but here I go..
I’m still getting worse. I feel like it’s going to be worse than last time. Last time I was threatened with the hospital This time I might be forced to go. Everything is going downhill. Frank’s back. Doesn’t speak though. He only watches now. When I’m outside it’s terrible. I feel like someones there with a gun or a knife, coming to kill me, but every time I turn, no ones there. It seems now, that there is a person there, just waiting, following me around.Invisible. Waiting for the right time,right place. Each day is worse […]
Yeah I didn’t think so… Why would any of you worry about me? Anyways, sorry I’ve been gone, I’ve been safe at a friend’s house and then my grandparents saw a ‘bad’ pic on my ipod and now I cant get on a computer without them over my shoulder. Litterally. She stands right here and reads my texts and watches what i do. They’re at church right now so I get a chance to get on. Church…. My only freedom is when they are at church. Anyways… 4 days till I get on a plane for Florida. Not that it matters. My mom will probly […]
I hate how he name calls.
I hate how he doesn’t trust me.
I hate how he puts me down.
I hate how controlling he is.
I hate how he has uncontrollable anger.
I hate how he thinks he’s better than me.
I hate how he makes me feel dumb.
I hate how he let’s his friends put me down.
I hate how he talks badly about my family.
I hate how he sometimes doesn’t take me seriously.
I HATE how he has changed.
I love how he has gorgeous green eyes.
I love how he has the cutest smile.
I love how he has good […]