am i stable
no
am i okay
no
am i fine
no
im not doing okay
im not doing fine
must you be worried about me?
must you care about me?
we all know
im trying my best
to recover
we all know
im trying in my own way
to recover
we all know
we all have special ways
to recover
this is mine
i know its not
the best way
but its my way
and maybe it’ll work.
It’s crazy, I graduated high school at sixteen. I’m twenty now, and still only have two college classes under my belt because I can’t afford school working my crap job. I barely make enough to get by while eating only once or twice a day, and I can’t even work right now because my knee is too fucking damaged to walk on. Yet with all the things that I should be more worried about, I care more about the fact that I’m a magnet for stupid sluts while a girl that I can have an intelligent conversation with, or that hasn’t slept with […]
What rule did my most recent post violate for it to be deleted? I’m pretty sure it was flagged by people who have a motive in disrupting something they dislike from someone they dislike… Its fine though… The room will still come to fruition… Flagging my post just shows you’re (not the sp admins) worried about me doing so and you’re trying to prevent it… Ah well nice try though…
Im so confused beyond belief..
I dont Know how to feel about this situation..sad?angry?hurt?
I feel like i dont want to talk to anyone not even go to school..
I don’t want to face anyone without you telling me what is wrong..
you were the person i looked forward to seeing..
I messaged you..you dont answer..
you’ve been gone for ages,and im worried..
you see the messages but you dont reply..
I want to know if you’re okay..why you’ve been missing school..
I dont know if you have the same feelings i do for you..but others are telling me you do..
but how can i know when your gone..when you have seemed to disappear..
I guess […]
Last night my best friend and i were at her boyfriends house. she had skipped her dance class due to an anxiety attack caused by her mom. so she ended up meeting me at her boyfriends house to chill for a little (by chill i mean to help her chill out and relax). but when she has anxiety attacks or panic attacks thats when she cuts herself. and she took something that i was not happy with, but i understood why she did. i held her hand and we talked. she was going to come home with me to hide and get away from her […]
I havent been on here in awhile but now i need to come back because my world is turning back upside down.The depression is bad and for once theres not a real reason.I just feel drained.My meds were making me hyper in the beginning.I had a sense of happiness and peace for just a moment and now well its gone.Im back to being the me that i dont want to be.The me who feels like a failure and nobody cares.The me that feels depressed.
Im trying to wait befroe doing anything this time.Because my familys going to disneyland together and none of us […]
I unambivalently want to die. I’m 32. I’m getting married in five days. I have been diagnosed with a mood disorder as well as a personality disorder. I have sacrificed so many things on the altar of mental illness: serious relationships, a career, contact with family, financial stability, dignity. Few people know how horrible I feel most of the time. I work in the mental health field & should take better care of myself. I don’t take any meds or do many of the things that I could do to help myself feel better. Sometimes I think that I’ve become so inured to the pain associated […]
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