I found out Thursday that my cousin ended his own life. The entire community is devastated. My father and Grandfather were both close to him. I have this guilt in me that is just all consuming. All I want to do is cry. A year ago, this could have been me. If I succeeded in killing myself, I would be the cause of more pain than I could ever deal with. I should have been a better family member, a better person. Maybe I could have done something, seen the signs, and now my entire family is feeling so much pain, and al I feel […]
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This is my tribute to bullying. There are SO MANY kids out there getting bullied. And what are we doing to stop it? Nothing. Stand up for once. Be yourself. Stop being fakes. And start caring. WE can only change this world. It’s not going to magically happen. So live in the moment. Don’t bully. Be you. And stand out. You were born to be YOU. Not someone else. You weren’t born to be bullied or to be a bully, just you. So what if you were born ‘weird’, an ‘outcast’, or ‘nerdy’. It’s you. You can’t change who you were supposed to be. […]
It is not okay to kill yourself. It is mean, it is selfish, it is disgusting. My bother was my best friend in the whole world. He was my go to guy for everything. He was strong, he was beautiful, and he was horribly selfish. He took his own life and left me here to try to live without him. It was too mean, too horrible, too awful for me to wrap my head around it. My mother can not stand to get out of bed, my dad had to cut his baby down when he found him hanging in the basement. My brother is […]
It seems that there is a great deal of romanticising of depression going around on the internet (I’m looking at you tumblr), films, books and even music, or I’m just being hyper sensitive and looking to support my hypothesis either way. I do this pathetic thing when I’m depressed where I seek out such horrendous works of publications that romanticise depression. I’ve come across brilliant works that provide a more accurate portrayal, I like those ones, if you’ve got any suggestions shout them out. I feel really angry when I come across these things, and I kinda want to punch whoever created them.
Things that are […]
it’s happening again. I thought I could move and everything would be better. I’ve tried. I’m exercising, I’m in a new location, I have new friends, I’m pretty, smart, talented, etc. what the fuck is wrong with me
I don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t do anything. except sit here and feel sorry as fuck for myself. because that’s all I am is sorry. I don’t know how I’m gonna get better. nothing is working. I can’t do it alone. I need some sort of medical help because this shit isn’t working. I wish I could leave myself. like it’s so easy for […]
I think we all know the feeling of sitting in the corner of your dark, lonely room. Trying not to wake your parents as tears slowly drown you. As you start to see the sun rise you get up off the floor. You wipe your tears and start with your day. You fake getting up and getting ready to look pretty. You head off to school and act like everything is fine and you laugh and smile. But on the inside you know it’s not okay. No one knows you cried all last night. No one would even guess that. You head home. You lock […]
What is the true definition of perfection?
Entirely without any flaws or defects
We are all perfect in God’s eyes. He made us from his own image.
You might be thinking:
Why did he do this to me?
Why did he put me through this?
Why can’t anyone else see what he sees?
You know I don’t really know the answers to these questions either because I was asking them too at one point in time. But one very wise person once told me:
He only put you through this because he knew you were strong enough to handle it. So don’t loose Faith in him. Don’t give up Hope. For he knows […]
“I’m God Mode. Nothing can hurt me. I will always win. Sure, give me a hit, let’s do it. I’m down for anything, I don’t give a FUCK. I will ALWAYS win.”
“Because I got fired, right? Oh, it didn’t work out? Shit, nothing matters. Nothing means anything anyways. What’s the point? Today I’ll be invincible.”
Do you ever feel that way? Like, let’s be reckless and careless because, hey, we know we’re going to be dead in a few days anyways so who cares? Let’s run away, spend all our money, travel the country, and when we’re dead broke after our travels, we […]
Please go fuck yourself. That is all.
I’ve seen throughout my life a reoccurring cop out argument and honestly the only argument happy go lucky people bring to the table. Well its your “choice” if you want to be miserable. “That’s your choice to look at things that way instead of my way, and that’s why you’re miserable.” That’s basically saying there’s only one mindset that works in this world and that’s whatever the hell works for them which they always fail to explain. Are you kidding me? Really if you think about it that’s the same sort of logic that homophobes use towards gays, “your lifestyle and sexuality is a choice, and […]
Suicide is NOT the answer.
ive learned that.
Plus because im a youngyin’.
even tho’ life gets bad once in a while.
you gotta pick yourself up and find another thing in life to worry about.
maybe something more important than  the thing your worrying about.
dont sweat it,
I promise,
life gets better.
MUCH better.
i love you no matter what.
never forget that.
Quit Worrying About How You Look, it’s About Whats On The Inside!
i don’t care who you are. your beautiful and amazing in your own unique and special way, please don’t let what he/she says make you stop believing that. the people who hurt you most are the ones who usually are the closest to you…but don’t beat yourself up, and depress yourself with it, because they may have called you ugly. stupid. fat. etc..but only you can believe them..only you can take it to heart. only you can take it as far as it gets. You, are Your Biggest Enemy. free yourself from mental slavery, […]
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