Somewhat melodramatic perhaps but I just cant. I’ve had an alcohol problem for over 10 years now and I have no idea how too possibly beat it. Ive been depressed for as long as I can remember and even that seems in insignificant word to describe how i feel. Why should i not just die now, why the fuck not. It wont make any difference. Ive fucked up so much of everything that i dont know how to get back to any semblance of normality or life, or frankly if ive ever been there.
You are lucky if you have the strength to daily decide not to die. Karine Polwart.