The last day or so, I’ve become seriously concerned that when I tried to kill myself, I really did injure myself cognitively in some fashion. That I’ve inflicted some permanent damage to my brain. I have no idea how long I was unconscious. Now I’m torn, do I try to recover, or do I finish the task?
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what did u do
You try to recover 🙂
Is it memory loss or something else? I’ve heard of that being a common after-effect of attempts. Please try to recover, porphyrous. Did the medication not change anything?
It’s possible. If you say what you did and your symptoms, maybe someone here can help you determine what damage, if any, you’ve done. I hope you’re ok though. And just because there’s some damage, doesn’t mean it’s permanent. These things can heal, after all.
@Protoryu. I hung myself. I was interrupted, at which point I “woke up”. I know I was unconscious, I just don’t know for how long.
@Trix: Lots of short-term memory loss. In the hospital, I was put on Zypraxa first, then Geodon later. They took the dissociative suicidal impulses away. The short-term memory issue arose after my attempt. I’m also on Effexor and Lithium, to try to raise and stabilize my mood swings. I sometimes feel suicidal when I’m on the downswing, like last night.
The best I can suggest is telling a doctor. Maybe they can offer something else to steer you away from it. Is taking the meds they offer better than taking nothing? Also worth mentioning the memory less. I don’t know if that’s a long-term effect or not.
Does anyone know you still have times feeling suicidal? You said on another post that now you’ve attempted, it seems easier to do it again… but it’s not been long since last time… with more time and more help it could still get better. Maybe it’d be good to let someone else know if they don’t already. I know it’s nothing to do with me and everyone can get to the point where they can’t control themselves either way… but I really hope you try to stay away from that point. I got to the point where I was scared to go for help because it might stop me from doing it for ages but not help anything. But if you keep telling people what’s happening, I think you’ve got a good shot of getting better. You’re being offered different kinds of help, so you never know what will come next. Give it a chance if you can 🙂 Also, at the worst points, are you able to be around people? It might not give it a chance to get so bad, distracting yourself by talking or walking with someone, things like that.