I can remember when life was good. When I was enthusiastic about life. When everything was new and fresh and fun. I had joy in just about everything I did back then. I would read up on everything, travel and explore the world, I even enjoyed my job and the people that I worked with. I enjoyed every bite of food I ate and I was thankful for what I have. Now life seems to be a choir. I think its because I am much older now and things aren’t new anymore. I have been there and done that with just about everything and its now just a choir to go on. Now I have seen it all and been there and done that over and over and now it seems I am just going on for the sake of going on but I honestly feel sometimes like I wish my life was over. I just don’t see the point of living when most of your dreams have already been fulfilled and the rest of the dreams you want to do before you die seem to be out of reach. Bla Bla… I guess this is just my rant for the day. I like to rant sometimes.
just don’t find the same level of joy in things anymore. I wish the clock would fast forward to the time of my death and that I could finally get my chance to sleep the sleep of death. Death just seems so right and peaceful for me right now. Death seems like a nice fluffy pillow that I could lay my head down and sleep forever and not have to wake up and fix this problem or deal with that problem. I wouldn’t have to suffer in my body anymore. I wouldn’t have to deal with the pains of life anymore. Death where are you? why dont you come and dance with me. Why don’t you come and lull me off to a nice peaceful sleep so I wont have to be unhappy in this life anymore? where are you? where are you?
I long for the day when I dont exist in this cruel world anymore. Where I can cease to exist… and not have to struggle with life and its bullshit. Im so sick of dealing with bullshit… so sick of having problems to deal with and not enough resources to conquer them.
Death come and take me away to the land of non-existence. I never asked for this life to begin with.
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i always like your post, how fucked up is that? 🙂 i identify with everything you say! bottom line we are stuck! all of the magic is gone! we know the secretes of the tricks! so what do we do from here? where do you go now?
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Oh, (sweet child)
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sweet child of mine!!
first we must accept it, then we must go to the next level, pull up our boot straps! make the best of what we got, and deal with it, is it really so important to believe in dreams that we know aren’t true any longer? i’m cooking on the BBQ Carnieastated is it important i can’t even spell it? anyways, i’m doing something i enjoy, something different and tasty! something to look forward too! i’m not moving mountains but that sure is going to taste good! give yourself something to look forward to, and relax, we will all die sooner or later, until then invent something to look forward too! everyday and keep it simple.
My good friend ROcketman to the rescue!! Thanks for your reply. I like the Sweet Child Of Mine reference. and yes, you are right about making the best of what we got and enjoying in the little things. You always come to my rescue when I am down and out and I appreciate it.
I will take your advice. Your a good man Rocketman!!