What if I’m done trying? What if I want to stop hurting, and want to stop hurting the people I care about? What if push away my loved ones so they can have an easier time when I’m gone? What if I don’t give a fuck how many people show up to my funeral, because my permanent pain is more important than their temporary pain? What if I can’t feel connection to anyone, because I can’t feel connection to myself? What if I’d rather my daughter grow up without me, knowing her mom killed herself, because I hate that I’ve taught her self hate and […]