I feel like everyone is against me. Always yelling at me, always complaining about me, always telling me what to do and always blaming me. It’s not me and my mood swings but I’ve had enough of everyone. I’m just staying here but I’m always get the blame on. Someone just take me away. I wish I was never born into this family. I fucking hate this house. It’s everyday. When I feel that my life is improving, it becomes worse than before.
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I just want to be gone. Not the dead gone just yet but the runaway gone. I want to run far far away where no one will remember me and I will lose contact with everyone. I might as well just fake my death. I personally however feel like suicide is a sin for me. I’m sick of this family. It sucks to be a girl because you are disrespected (in this family). Then there are my friends who will never be there for me. Who takes my problem and changes it to theirs so they won’t have to listen to my crap […]
I’m very sensitive about any topic about my grandma. Well, today I was criticized for everything I did. Honestly that’s almost everyday but today was the worst. Anyways, then one of my sibling went with a low blow as to mentioning my grandma. My grandma has been someone who I love so much and the topic of her makes me depressed, good or bad since she passed away. I just want to cry. That was such a fucking low blow as my sibling criticized me by guilt tripping me mentioning that. Now I am here wanting to cry out loud. Goodness it hurts.
I listen to everyone talk about their problems, I don’t mind. Of course I don’t because I don’t want someone to be troubled or hurt. I try my best to cheer everyone up. Some even say that I’m a good at that. Well, of course I’m good at that because all I do is listen and try to find ways to let them be happy without saying “it’ll get better.” Oh god. I feel like shit. When I have problems, all the people I help suddenly disappears and it’s like “wow.” That is all I can say. Can you guys tell me why no one […]
I haven’t posted on here for a while now but it’s happening again. I’m always getting blamed. I get blamed for the things I didn’t do because “it seems like I did it.” That’s what she tells me. What did I ever do to her anyways? She’s always acting so good but I know her better. But it hurts so fucking much to get blamed for every second. She tries to find things to blame me for every single time. Every little thing. I’m so fucking done. I did nothing wrong. Just take me away. And these days it’s always my fault. Crying again now. […]
I can’t take it anymore. I’m crying every night. I’m stressed, I’m anxious, and I’m tired. What to do anymore? Is life important? I’m here thinking of someone I can tell my problems to and I think and think but I end up being here. So much friends but they’ll only think I’m annoying or take it as a joke. I just want to die, not suicide. Then again jumping off a cliff doesn’t sound so bad. I’m so sad, lonely and everything.
I told my friend that I am afraid I might have anxiety or depression and he did what I feared. He mocked me. He made a joke of it and I trusted him. I’ve known him for almost 9 years now. It hurts like hell, he’s one of the three people who I told and he made me lost trust in everyone now.
You fucking use me. Need help? I’m always here but when I make an accident all the fucking words I hear are “you are useless.” I’m done with these bullshit. Don’t be telling me to be act sweet, talk nice, smile brighter because other girls does it. I will be myself. Just stop fucking comparing me to others. I give up being the fucking kind me.
I don’t know what’s wrong. I feel this nagging thing in my chest. I’m shaking & crying. I feel goosebumps but it’s so warm. I can’t handle it. I just want to cry and cry and cry. I want to scream. I’m not sad or mad but my heart is causing me to want to scream. It’s so much to handle. I’m sure there was nothing to trigger it.
So I have many group of friends. One group planned to get ice cream and hang out but they bailed out on me. I was pretty upset. Then they said stuff and made me feel guilty. Then my other friend (different group) told me to go meet her at the mall and when I got there, she called me that she had an “appointment” somewhere else. So yeah. What are friends? Hurts that my trust is thinning. I couldn’t sleep all night last night until 6am and now I can’t stay awake. So terrible. I’m drained and numb to think of what they did to […]
Hi… This is my first time ever posting and it’s a little awkward. Anyways, I’ll start out with my life. I live a pretty good life, in my opinion. A big family with wonderful parents, many group of friends, good grades, liked by everyone I meet. Everything is great… yet I don’t know why some days I want to vanish. No, I do not want to die or self harm but yet I want to be gone. I cry each time I think of death. I want to suddenly disappear so no one can find me, like I never existed. I don’t know where this […]