That’s it. I just can’t take it anymore. Everyone hates me. There’s not a goddamn thing wrong with me. I’m skinny, I’m somewhat good looking, people laugh at my jokes (yes it [i]IS[/i] at my jokes) and still I’m always the one taking all the shit. I feel like one day I’m going to explode. I keep thinking that school is just like a war camp: I have to battle my way through seven levels of hell. [b]And that’s not even including the bus to school and back and the hallway encounters.[/b]
I don’t think I’ve been through a whole day without
*Getting slapped in the face at least three times
*Having at least one kid threaten to beat up
*Getting in trouble for something I didn’t do, because everyone blames it on me.
The friends I have are using me and I know it; but I’m so pathetic that I hang on simply because I want SOME dignity.
I seriously just give up. I want to pull a VT: i seriously do.
Then I could ask them who’s laughing now.
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I feel your pain. To some extent at least. School is indeed a war camp, it’s like something we have to stick out for x number of years til we break free at the end of it all. I simply can’t wait til I graduate so that I can do something I choose to do.
Recently my very best friend turned out to be not so good a friend, and now I don’t even talk to her anymore. It hasn’t made school any easier. I don’t know how far along you are in school or how old you are, but I’m in my last year and it’s getting better already. People say our school days should be the best days of our lives, but I think those people must have had a seriously sh1tty adult-hood, because it is in no way true.
Stay gold 🙂
i’ll beat em’ up for ya
yea, i agree with grace. i’m 28 and school was NOT something I miss or would care to relive. don’t let people define who you are. i know that is easy to say, but it is so easy to see yourself through other peoples eyes and not your own. good luck and hang in there.
We are taught that we are simply products of the environment and genetic makeup we inherit, a product of random meaningless. The traits which are in the common mean of the bell curve are considered desired, but simply it’s those who have those traits are the best for reproduction as determined by the majority. What do they know? There is more meaning to life than what Richard Dawkins exposes. The entire education system is designed with an evolutionary viewpoint, and you don’t need to put up with it. Rather than doing something radical to your life to get people to respect you, consider talking to your parents about homeschooling. You could do so much better, and not have to put up with an artificial “rat race” which emotionally will scare you for life. You can excel, and be the person who solves a problem, or designs something to make our lives better. Don’t fall into the lie, don’t let them make you a dodo (a bird which could not adapt to its environment).
im 25 now and in school i was one of the popular kids, i wasnt some asshole,i never picked on kids infact i stopped it a few times but not as many as i should, but i was “friends” with some of the stereotypical people who blame you and smack you down emotionaly and phsysically and you may take comfort in knowing where those people end up, most of them broken shells of the people they thought they were in high school, the real world hit them like a ton of bricks and all there problems that they never dealt with come bubblein up i just read an o-bit about a varsity football player (and known ass-hole not only at my high school but at the local state U) who committed suicide. these hard times in school will only make you a stronger more determined adult. and as for going VT i think you mean Virgina tech, i had a few friends at the school when the shootings happened and i was scarred shitless remember if you did something like that you would not only affect the lives of the people you killed but there familys, friends and whole communitys. the problem with the kid who committed the shooting was that he had no one to connect with, and no outlet. I THINK WE SHOULD ALL BE COMMENDED FOR VENTING HERE !! IT SHOWS WE ARE STILL FIGHTING AND LOOKING FOR HELP. i was lucky enough to find a mentor, an older kid took me under his wing and basically taught me how to handle the “rat race” its a lot different if you know the rules to the game. homeschooling isnt the answer its just running from the problems wether its school or work or even just the social sceen there will always be an insecure bullying ass hole who will perceive you as weak its just how you learn to deal with it. i myself am a fairly easy target 6’4″ and a measly 135lbs and prior to highschool i had a lot of bull to deal with. i wish i knew what grade you were in or more about what goes on so i could offer you some guidence. if you want it feel free to contact me
I know how you feel. I grew up with an Anxiety Disorder for so many years. I have to say it ruined my childhood. I couldn’t go anywhere without having that pain there. It got to the point where it started affecting me mentally. I started thinking to myself, “What’s the point?”
But I guess what helped me hold on was me realizing that if I did kill myself, it wouldn’t relieve anything. If I killed myself, I would feel… nothing.
You just have to step back and think, you already have features people would love to have! Your skinny, good-looking, and people laugh at your jokes. And I know not everyone hates you… I don’t hate you. And I’m pretty sure everyone here doesn’t hate you.