as a child beaten and unloved, told to leave and never to return.
alone and desperate for love, let in love, well what i thought was love, to be let down and left with two wonderfull children, but still wanted to be loved and wanted to be wanted, let love in again, to be beaten and abused, no one to help, let down by everyone, 12 years long years, trying to hide it form my (now three) children, lost in the divorce, hunted out of my home, relocated, in poverty, no fridge, cooker, carpets, and baillifs around tomorow to take what i have left.
iam numb, i have let my children down, iam in tears.
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It’s okay to cry, I would too. Hugs
I, too, wish someone would love me. And whenever someone says they do, I usually don’t believe them. I’m not that lovable, as has been drilled into me.
I am worried that soon I also shall be almost homeless with no possessions to my name because of debt.
It’s alright to cry.
Maybe you can look into homeless shelters? Or call a church nearby for advice/aid? Those are just some resources.
You haven’t let your children down. You were probably doing the best job you could and that is not letting your children down. Letting your children down is not even trying or wanting to try. You love them.
i just hear a very loving mum not someone who has let her kids down.All kids really need is to be loved and feel wanted and from what you say you care for them alot. You need to take care of yourself……hard to do when youve had a crap childhood…i know all about that. Hope you get yourself sorted…you sound like a great mum to me…take care..things will get better.