Everything is falling apart and I don’t know what to do. My family is being torn apart and I can’t stop it. All I wanted was to have a family that loves each other and doesn’t fight. Every once in awhile is okay but not this. Then I found out me dad has bleeding ulsers and if they don’t get better they could turn in to canser. I just want everything to be okay it doesn’t have to be perfect but at least okay. I don’t want to be the reason he ends up in the hospital. Then I made he so mad yesterday. So I’m just feeling like I shoundn’t be around anymore. And I have to say I don’t think that I should be around anymore. So I might just go and off myself so that I can’t hurt anyone anymore. Everyone says that won’t solve anything but if I’m not around how can I hurt the ones I love then? I just want them to be happy. I that such a bad thing? I just want him to be happy and not have to care for me anymore.
I don’t know you and probably will never meet you and I already care about you and your life. Corny huh? I know exactly what you are going through for I have had the same feelings before. I was cutting myself and everything just trying to keep myself from going further. My boyfriend killed himself 4 days after I lost my virginity to him was a huge reason for feeling the way I did. But there is a reason we are on this fucked up world. I don’t know what it is, but I want to find out and hopefully make a good difference while I’m here. Your family loves you don’t feel like they don’t. Somewhere deep down they do, even if you never see it. And there are people you don’t even know praying for you and your family.