I may not have as many problems as many people here but I feel a lot of pain. I get stressed. I suspect I have disorders. And that amplifies my pain. As a kid I was a bullied kid. I seriously didn’t do anything wrong, I just acted different, and the kids around me I guess really didn’t like that. Now, I messed up with people again and I was really happy that I made friends but they mostly back stabbed me or let me down. They most of them don’t even realize it, they are so wrapped up in themselves. I’ve become isolated because only a couple of my friend actually understand enough, and I listen to so much music. I got my eating disorder, nausea and throwing up every meal under control under control. And I’ve stopped bruising myself. But sometimes, I still have suicial fantasies because I get convinced that the world is out to get me and every one is going to hurt me or disappoint me. But that’s only when I get it all built up on me, which is really good because I’ll pop and have depressed periods a lot more. I’m strong but sometimes it’s just so hard. What’s life for anyways??