I may not have as many problems as many people here but I feel a lot of pain. I get stressed. I suspect I have disorders. And that amplifies my pain. As a kid I was a bullied kid. I seriously didn’t do anything wrong, I just acted different, and the kids around me I guess really didn’t like that. Now, I messed up with people again and I was really happy that I made friends but they mostly back stabbed me or let me down. They most of them don’t even realize it, they are so wrapped up in themselves. I’ve become isolated because only a couple of my friend actually understand enough, and I listen to so much music. I got my eating disorder, nausea and throwing up every meal under control under control. And I’ve stopped bruising myself. But sometimes, I still have suicial fantasies because I get convinced that the world is out to get me and every one is going to hurt me or disappoint me. But that’s only when I get it all built up on me, which is really good because I’ll pop and have depressed periods a lot more. I’m strong but sometimes it’s just so hard. What’s life for anyways??
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the point of life is to find what we truly enjoy and are good at and persue that.
helper
To “Helper”: I know you are trying to “help” but please read these stories and try to understand the pain of being unable to cope. Having someone “preach” to you about the purpose of life does not help in any way, shape or form. It only adds to the the already negative feelings that the person has about themselves – not something that someone contemplating suicide needs. Your thought is something that, hopefully, we will all come to realize, but it is one that we need to come to on our own.
I wish the best for you. It’s hard, but please realize that it’s not your fault.
You’re already ahead of the game in recognizing you may have problems. We all have problems. In my frist few years of depression i was in denial.
I hope that this post help you vent out some of your suppressed feelings. good luck.
<3MisterRiddler
Cool thanx, hey I have intuition; I get all of you guys are tryin to help and I seriously appreciate that. Hey MisterRiddler doesn’t depression suck? It feels like every time you felt happy was fake and stuff cause you feel soooo down. Helper, thanx I think your idea of life is a cool idea but you gotta understand when you’re depressed nothing seems fun or happy to you. You feel like you’re drowning in dispair, you feel dizzy, and dying seems awesome. beenthere gets it. I realize a lot of things, but somtimes it’s kinda hard to remember it and believe that you actually felt good about life. Isn’t it?
well, everybody has his or her own ideas about how life works . The matter of fact is when a person sinks into the depression, he will feel lost and terrible. I feel as people out there like us needs to do is not to impose on how life is going to be but just share a listening ear and understands life’s sufferings. Ultimately, everybody is going to be responsible for his or her own life and will decide his or her course of action. The world is unfair, and sometimes cruel with evil and danger lurking. The best we can do is protect ourselves and accept our flaws and limitations peacefully and happily
hey kid i hope u get better and stay better soon:)) if u need anything just email me at changemakessence@live.co.uk
best of luck,
jamie